October 12th, 2013

amelie quote on wall

air and light and time and space

posted in greatpoets (here)



AIR AND LIGHT AND TIME AND SPACE

”– you know, I’ve either had a family, a job,
something has always been in the
way
but now
I’ve sold my house, I’ve found this
place, a large studio, you should see the space and
the light.
for the first time in my life I’m going to have
a place and the time to
create.”

no baby, if you’re going to create
you’re going to create whether you work
16 hours a day in a coal mine
or
you’re going to create in a small room with 3 children
while you’re on
welfare,
you’re going to create with part of your mind and your body blown
away,
you’re going to create blind
crippled
demented,
you’re going to create with a cat crawling up your
back while
the whole city trembles in earthquake, bombardment,
flood and fire.

baby, air and light and time and space
have nothing to do with it
and don’t create anything
except maybe a longer life to find
new excuses
for.

- Charles Bukowski



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poem: power & control

power & control


part one
i.
i'm not going to think about you.
AND OTHER LIES I TELL MYSELF

ii.
so grumpy today when thinking about how Thanksgiving is a few days away and here i am, fucking fasting. friends wanted to make us dinner but i had to decline. she said, but you can have some of the turkey broth and i said no, i could not. the taste of that would make me want to eat everything. i know myself.

iii.
refusal to undo the progress i am making even if it hurts
and it does hurt. but only when i think about it too much.

iv.
correction: only when i want anything too much.


part two
i.
the bubbles in a little bottle tied with string that i took with permission from a tree on
king street at night in downtown Toronto. the statement "yes" taped to the side of it.

ii.
the power in that.


part three
i.
i'm more honest in my paper journal because no one can hear what i say there.

ii.
you always thought i talked too much.

iii.
if i would have been the one to use silence, i could have had the control.

iv.
now we know neither one of us has it. not really.

v.
did we ever?




- adp, 12 October 2013