September 4th, 2007

alice lost in labyrinth

{microblog} 08 June 2007 to 04 September 2007

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08 June 2007 to 04 September 2007

All day hot summer, sweatful biking across the city then afternoon thunder rainstorm sudden like a car crash. Dad just blew in w/ groceries.
03:53 PM June 08, 2007 from txt

I'm watching The Corporation on The Documentary Channel. It's one of my favorite documentaries that I highly recommend to anyone & everyone.
04:20 PM June 08, 2007 from txt

Going to wander about on my bicycle - take photos & find a place to read, write & think. I saw a monarch butterfly flutterby earlier.
04:44 PM June 09, 2007 from web

I didn't do any reading (I do enough of that @ home) but I took over 200 photos today. Lucky if even 50 are any good. Beautiful outside, aye
07:33 PM June 09, 2007 from web

Will I get anything done today or will I ride my bicycle about the city, avoiding the completion of any pending tasks (as usual)?
10:07 AM June 10, 2007 from web

Staying indoors today. Listening to music & playing with my cats & doing stuff on the internets & reading a book @ times & drinking coffee.
01:08 PM June 10, 2007 from web

You know you're better off right? You can feel sorry for yourself for now but everyone knows you can do better for yourself. pityexpirydate
02:32 PM June 10, 2007 from web

Facebook's last.fm application is driving me insane. I wish I hadn't altered it. I liked the simplistic version instead of the plus one.
02:34 PM June 10, 2007 from web

i take that back. no expiry date. &it's not pity. I sympathize. whether it be toothache or heartache, it's all ache. who hasn't had that?
02:40 PM June 10, 2007 from web

I have spent way too much time on the internet today.
05:06 PM June 10, 2007 from web

I read up until the Reagan administration ratifying the genocide convention - of course it was just a political move for a serious blunder.
09:41 PM June 10, 2007 from web

This book is depressing but well written, factual, detailed - depressing because we're talking about genocide here, ya know?
Nothingchanged.
09:43 PM June 10, 2007 from web

I'm doing internet stuff. Secret internet stuff. Shhh.
01:58 PM June 11, 2007 from web

I'm showered and ready to go for a walk and now I'll be doing secret outdoors stuff.
03:25 PM June 11, 2007 from web

oh.
05:26 PM June 12, 2007 from web

The stars were lit over the park tonight and the picnic table was more comfortable than my bed.
12:51 AM June 13, 2007 from web

Didn't go to bed at all last night & so I guess I'm just going to stay awake today. I'm past second wind & heading into delirium. Weee.
08:33 AM June 13, 2007 from web

sleep? we don't need no frickin' sleep! pshaw!
05:25 AM June 14, 2007 from web

i've had it with wikipedia!
05:37 AM June 14, 2007 from web

one minute you're up, one minute you're down, one minute you're spinning round & round.
03:41 PM June 15, 2007 from web

no, it's filet o' fish.
03:45 PM June 15, 2007 from web

what am i waiting for? why do i keep holding myself back from being who i am? why do i shield the better parts of me & not let others see?
06:19 PM June 20, 2007 from web

soemtimes, i'm just so tired.
06:20 PM June 20, 2007 from web

when i was a kid, i won spelling bees. i've done worse than digress.
06:20 PM June 20, 2007 from web

why am i waiting for someone to tell me i'm worth it? why do i need validation from you? what pieces are missing that i expect to be found?
06:26 PM June 20, 2007 from web

no. filet o' fish.
08:02 PM June 20, 2007 from web

nothing in your eyes but i'm stardust! dirt of the earth i am lovely nothing.
11:13 PM June 20, 2007 from web

filet a fish?
11:14 PM June 20, 2007 from web

Whatever.
10:56 PM June 22, 2007 from txt

For the first time in several years I used my hiking backpack for my laundry, took it to the laundromat. Felt good to roll the bath towels.
11:20 AM June 23, 2007 from web

I'm ridiculously jealous only because i'm excited about seeing it. I'll just have to be patient. I wonder if 'sicko' will impact policy.
12:14 AM June 26, 2007 from web

No bedtime routine until I'm back to school on July 3rd. Just wanna bang on the drum. I am so going to kick ass when I go back next term.
12:21 AM June 26, 2007 from web

have you seen the moon tonight?
02:39 AM June 27, 2007 from web

Matthew - I was watching Henry Rollins uncut from NYC & thought you two crazy kids need to get together. I'd love to hear you both talk.
12:38 AM June 29, 2007 from txt

Matthew Good on Henry Rollins - the convo would be incredible & he'd actually talk to you about what matters.
12:40 AM June 29, 2007 from txt

Born Losers by Matthew Good just started on FM96 while I was writing about him. My 1st time hearing it on the radio. Fucking beautiful...
12:43 AM June 29, 2007 from txt

don't forget to look @ the moon!
12:57 AM June 29, 2007 from web

the moon, the moon, the moon.
12:58 AM June 29, 2007 from web

MATTHEW GOOD's new album streamed on his website! YES.
03:19 AM June 29, 2007 from web

out of the wretched, such amazing beauty - and it's you, all you - all of it - amazing.
03:36 AM June 29, 2007 from web

Heading to a cottage & will take us a few hours but the trees are green & the fields are yellow & the sky is blue with little fluffy clouds.
10:50 AM June 30, 2007 from txt

Homeward bound. Left @ 8pm. Took lots of pics. Will be getting home very late. Wonder if we'll see any fireworks along the way?
08:40 PM July 01, 2007 from txt

Climbed, jumped & ran across rocks, stood at the top & bottom of a waterfall - then slipped sideways in the Georgian Bay - tired flip flops.
08:43 PM July 01, 2007 from txt

shhh... it's a secret!
03:00 PM July 08, 2007 from web

twitter stopped asking me what i'm doing.
01:38 PM July 17, 2007 from web

Awake for school this morning. Uploading photos from hanging out with LJ friend Heather yesterday. HP is released tonight &I want it, argh.
07:05 AM July 20, 2007 from web

shower shower shower!
07:58 AM July 20, 2007 from web

I've gotta go to school now.
08:28 AM July 20, 2007 from web

Must do homework assignments this weekend and study for Monday's test. Important to pass this course. I can do this. also, i want chocolate.
10:36 AM July 20, 2007 from txt

@ home & it's the weekend, yay! Completed some assignments in class. I'm going to pass this term for sure, whew. Very important I do so.
02:50 PM July 20, 2007 from web

Dad gave me early B.D. cash to buy final Harry Potter book! Chris just invited me to go road trippin' tomorrow morning! Yayness all around!
05:35 PM July 20, 2007 from txt

Just talked with best friend Gwen on the phone for awhile & now I'm procrastinating about throwing some stuff together for tomorrow's trip.
09:35 PM July 20, 2007 from web

Going to read and head off to bed for some sleep because tomrrow is going to be an action -adventure day. Hopefully will be a good time.
10:49 PM July 20, 2007 from web

i worry too much.
10:50 PM July 20, 2007 from web

I intend on getting a copy of harry potter tomorrow and i'm looking forward to reading it. Very curious as to how it will end.
10:51 PM July 20, 2007 from web

I have the Harry Potter book! I wanted Kerouac too but Chris told me no! and made me put it back. After the fact, I think he's awesome &hot.
11:30 AM July 21, 2007 from txt

uploading photos from yesterday, listening to music, NOT reading my harry potter book, must study for test tomorrow, feeling sleepy, yawn!
08:31 PM July 22, 2007 from web

Finished updating LJ with photographs from Saturday. I'm exhuasted, didn't eat all day & I have a test @ school tomorrow to study for. Ahh!
12:13 AM July 23, 2007 from web

Going to have a bubble bath and read. And hope very much that I do not drop this particular book into the water.
02:53 PM July 23, 2007 from web

tea, tea, tea.
04:48 PM July 23, 2007 from web

I talk too much.
09:32 PM July 23, 2007 from web

Drinking 'awake' tea for school. Should likely get dressed then, eh? Tomorrow is my birthday.
08:10 AM July 24, 2007 from web

I'm not drinking the tea for school. I'm drinking the tea for me. I don't think the tea is working.
08:11 AM July 24, 2007 from web

It's pretty sad when the construction workers across the street are active an hour before I am.
08:22 AM July 24, 2007 from web

Figures that it would be a 'work on your own' day --- not even the teacher is here! I can go home and finish reading Harry Potter now.
10:20 AM July 24, 2007 from web

I'll try not to be disappointed that this day couldn't have been scheduled for tomorrow instead - you know, my birthday. Blah!
10:21 AM July 24, 2007 from web

Despite how it may seem most times, I do realize that the world does not revolve around me (though gravity does seem to pull at my centre).
10:22 AM July 24, 2007 from web

retro music channel playing when he knocked at my door unexpectedly. he's warmth and kisses. we're such dorks together. it's wonderful.
10:31 PM July 24, 2007 from web

shouldn't be in such a rush to call it something when it already is - it just is - and isn't that enough for the girl who wanted nothing?
10:34 PM July 24, 2007 from web

"And we were never being boring / We were never being bored / cause we were never being boring / We were never being bored." - pet shop boys
11:02 PM July 24, 2007 from web

From our birthday, until we die, Is but the winking of an eye. - William Butler Yeats // Starting my B.D. w/ Matthew Good's Hospital Music.
12:34 AM July 25, 2007 from web

"I made a fire; being tired Of the white fists of old Letters and their death rattle" - sylvia plath // what a most interesting birthday!
09:27 PM July 25, 2007 from web

oh my...
07:36 PM July 26, 2007 from web

Drinking honey lemon tea.
02:34 PM July 27, 2007 from web

Just finished reading the final Harry Potter book. Wonderful.
07:40 PM July 27, 2007 from web

Going to get dressed and meet up with my old friend Richard! Squee!
08:36 AM July 28, 2007 from web

It's hot and humid & I just rode my bicycle all over town.
12:04 PM July 28, 2007 from web

Do you expect to simply sleep off sorrow & by evening things would be different, the crier would declare, "all is well!" It is not that way.
08:27 PM July 28, 2007 from web

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12:06 PM July 29, 2007 from web

Made youtube videos about the gospel of judas and harry potter today. going to the laundromat soon.
03:42 PM July 29, 2007 from web

change of plans.
06:00 PM July 29, 2007 from web

I'm thankful for my two cats, books and music. I realize these things aren't lasting, (as love might be) but I'm questioning that anyway.
10:29 PM July 29, 2007 from web

I'm watching too many retro music videos.
10:30 PM July 29, 2007 from web

I do believe I'm experiencing bouts of insomnia again.
01:53 AM July 30, 2007 from web

Nearly done this term of school (Thursday is the final exam) and then I can take the rest of August to do whatever I want. Yay.
01:55 PM July 30, 2007 from web

Heather was over with a homemade birthday card that has a photo of me blowing out the candles on the birthday cake she made for me! sweet!
10:15 PM July 30, 2007 from web

I'm thinking of going on a trip in August, on my own, maybe by train, to Toronto and maybe Montreal, somewhere. See places and myself, away.
10:19 PM July 30, 2007 from web

look at the moon!
10:23 PM July 30, 2007 from web

for crying out loud, I'm on stickam now! Even more distractions - just what I needed, not!
02:48 PM August 01, 2007 from web

who says 'not!' anymore. geesh. live in the now, amber dawn.
02:49 PM August 01, 2007 from web

it's getting hot in here.
03:06 PM August 01, 2007 from web

Finax Exam this morning and then it's summertime! I'm still thinking of getting away for a couple weeks - mid-August. Meantime, summertime!
07:17 AM August 02, 2007 from web

ha, final exam. oh no. And it's an English one, too. Let's hope that was just a typo!
07:17 AM August 02, 2007 from web

Would now be a good time to study? I mean, I only have to leave in about an hour... (procrastinators unite! ...tomorrow)
07:18 AM August 02, 2007 from web

I will pass this course. I will pass this course. I will pass this course.
07:24 AM August 02, 2007 from web

Tea in the morning makes me happy. Tea anytime is a good thing, a very good thing.
07:25 AM August 02, 2007 from web

I passed the course. Vacation time. Payday. Going to do some shopping today. Hot & humid out but I'll be smiling. Gotta keep smiling.
12:36 PM August 02, 2007 from web

Caught up Rogers internet/phone/cable bill in full; bought new bra @ Aline's Fine Lingerie (cost a lot) & picked up pre-ordered CDs (YAY!)
03:38 PM August 02, 2007 from web

Going back out into the heat & humidity to pick up kitty litter, cat food and laundry soap. Construction workers were sitting in the shade.
03:40 PM August 02, 2007 from web

Listening to Nick Drake's 'Way to Blue: An Introduction to Nick Drake' and enjoying it very much. Reading 'Slaughterhouse-Five' now/finally.
03:15 AM August 03, 2007 from web

dreams (nightmares) shook me about, woke up shaky stepping off a boat that had been at rough sea. Was tossed while turning & was it all me?
10:27 AM August 03, 2007 from web

Went to the laundromat today - several loads because I cleaned all the bedding. Read a lot! Probably will be done this book within a day.
05:22 PM August 03, 2007 from web

An amazing new friend surprised me w/ a Flickr Pro account! Think of the photos I can post now that aren't of myself! Yay! Very awesome!
08:53 AM August 04, 2007 from web

I woke up early today and I think I'm going to just stay in my nightie all day, uploading photos to Flickr, listening to music & net stuff.
11:55 AM August 04, 2007 from web

I crashed today after wearisome hours uploading photos, so I'm in my nightie still & waking up all over again & I suppose I should enjoy it.
07:12 PM August 04, 2007 from web

Meaning, lucky me that I can lay about all the day long and not have anything pressing to do! Vacation is awesome. Guilt-free laziness!
07:13 PM August 04, 2007 from web

I uploaded my photos out of order, duplicated & such, so I'm basically starting all over again to get it exactly right.
09:48 PM August 04, 2007 from web

Was in the bathtub about an hour; spent much of it reading - the rest was slow movements while Lion played beside the tub, pawing the edge.
01:40 AM August 05, 2007 from web

dear self: there are things i want to tell you, that you already know, which i wish to express thati may remember clearly my own thoughts...
02:20 AM August 06, 2007 from web

My LJ friend Heather & I, we dontated boxes and bits of stuff today. This is the 2nd time in a row where we did a cleansing, a letting go.
05:19 PM August 06, 2007 from web

Last night my old pal Jeremy said that sitting in my living room felt like being in a coffeeeshop. People feel relaxed when they visit. Good
05:27 PM August 06, 2007 from web

I've had nights of talking much too late. Indulging in conversation with a man who fascinates me. Everything beautiful, happened, is & will.
05:32 PM August 06, 2007 from web

Does there have to be a reason for everything or for everything is there no reason?
06:54 PM August 06, 2007 from web

sometimes i think i'm saying something that means something but it doesn't, not really. and then i feel a bit silly for having said it.
07:36 PM August 06, 2007 from web

That last twitter was in regards to my so-called 'deep' and 'reflective' twitter posts.
08:52 PM August 06, 2007 from web

i'm going to Toronto on the 16th and I'm not coming back until at least the 26th! I'm looking forward to getting away & the change of scene.
08:37 AM August 08, 2007 from web

Watching the documentary 'Shut Up & Sing' ---- thinking of 5 more days - 5! - & then I'll be in Toronto on vacation (& in someone's arms!)
05:31 PM August 11, 2007 from web

Landlord had new ceiling light fixture put in today and it includes a fan, ah, lovely! I will decorate the cords with butterflies, maybe.
04:02 PM August 12, 2007 from web

3 days! Twitter twitter twitter! Incredible that I'm actually going to go on a real vacation for the first time in years. I'm very excited.
02:15 AM August 13, 2007 from web

@matthewgood You should definitely watch the World of Warcraft episode. And every episode just about. Clever, clever show. you bastards!
07:16 PM August 13, 2007 from web in reply to matthewgood

Successfully transferred old photos from my laptop to my desktop. Uploading to Flickr and while this is something, I ought to pack soon...
07:17 PM August 13, 2007 from web

2 Days!
12:01 AM August 14, 2007 from web

tea is good. sleepy curled up cats are good. music on shuffle is good. inside wooden shutters to delay the daylight is good. life is good.
07:57 AM August 14, 2007 from web

Off now to go hiking with Heather, yay!
12:36 PM August 14, 2007 from web

Back from hiking with Heather. Scratches on my arms and hands, brambles on my clothes, walked barefoot on part of the trail - gorgeous day.
03:24 PM August 14, 2007 from web

I'm done with uploading old photos for now. Time to put what energy I have into the NOW, the present... the present. I've got stuff to do!
06:57 PM August 14, 2007 from web

3 hours sleep is enough when you're going to meet someone in person for the first time & you feel full of flutters & such, right? of course.
10:06 AM August 16, 2007 from web

@cliph Today is tomorrow already and I'm here. (with you!)
12:24 AM August 17, 2007 from web in reply to cliph

Cliph has a Mac. It's so pretty. All is clear to me now. Must go shower. Meeting him for lunch downtown. In Toronto. Yay!
11:48 AM August 17, 2007 from web

I caught the last bit of the drum circle in Trinity Bellwoods Park here in Toronto this evening. Could feel a drumbeat in my gut.
11:51 PM August 21, 2007 from twitterrific

I'm still in Toronto. I should be writing a journal entry but I'm not. Slow movements, I attempt to brush my hair. Slip on sandals. Walk.
02:50 PM August 23, 2007 from twitterrific

home. been in a state of dreaming, series of flashbacks - some trip.
07:33 AM August 27, 2007 from Twadget

sorted some photos from my vacation in Toronto. it took over a day to comedown from the high of being with him. my cats love me still, whew!
02:27 AM August 28, 2007 from Twadget

Visiting w/best friend Gwen, watching episodes of 'Seinfeld' on tv. She brought over Ben&Jerry's 'Americone Dream' (Colbert) ice cream yay!
08:11 PM August 28, 2007 from Twadget

Autumn leaves are falling and so am I.
08:18 PM August 28, 2007 from Twadget

@cliph No, you.
11:25 PM August 28, 2007 from Twadget in reply to cliph

I got my hair cut today. Layered with the ratty ends snipped off. Cliff is on his way (via rail) to spend the long weekend with me. Yay!
07:38 PM August 31, 2007 from Twadget

The moon was lovely tonight on the drive back from London. Gwen's hair is pretty. Cliff is here in my apartment! We're going for a walk.
12:02 AM September 01, 2007 from Twadget

Been feeling down about my body lately & it doesn't help that I had my hair cut recently (my hair = tool for hiding). I must get over this.
11:30 PM September 03, 2007 from Twadget

Thursday I return to school & not long after I'll be starting college. Going to take Reiki classes & sign up for Tai Chi. Do more walking.
11:32 PM September 03, 2007 from Twadget
alice lost in labyrinth

for she is always learning & forgetting & obliged to learn again -

It occurs to her that she should record this flash of insight into her journal - otherwise she is sure to forget, for she is someone who is always learning and forgetting and obliged to learn again - but the act of recording requires that she remove her gloves, rummage through her bag for her pen and for the notebook itself. This is more than she is capable of doing. And so she forces herself to sit quietly, her pulse racing, as the train rolls into the gentle, shadowy outskirts of Ottawa, capital of the Dominion (Do-min-i-on) of Canada.

- Carol Shields, 'The Stone Diaries'