February 1st, 2007

alice lost in labyrinth

i don't know where i'm at anymore.

this bathos heart, this gutted mind, the day to day and nights of being.

i've been disseminated a long while now. i know i ought to pull myself together, fashion something good from the waste, but part of me just doesn't care, wants to stay scattered, diffused. i have a 'date' tonight and i am feeling empty nothing hollow. do i offer up this vacant self, a here i am, do you like this nowhere girl?

i am a dare - doubtful anyone can take me.