
When I look back at my earlier diaries & journals, I wrote much more in a prosaic way using a larger vocabulary, a somewhat intelligent & thoughtful style. This could have been due to me being younger and influenced more by all the books I would read. Or because I didn't have the internet but I had thought myself a writer and so I wrote like I might be one someday. I'm not sure.
But now, I tend to use my paper journals to write sloppy, to be messy, to write purposely bland - as though to contrast the effort I try to put into what I post on the internet. I wonder if this will change later on as I get older, come & go in phases or if it matters the more I use my paper journal - if the routine will give me more energy to put that sort of effort into both the paper journal and my online one. Or maybe I just need a place where I don't have to spell check / edit / write pretty.






