goldmourn (amberdawnpullin) wrote,
goldmourn
amberdawnpullin

{microblog} 14 December 2007 to 09 January 2008

14 December 2007 to 09 January 2008

Awoke hour or more ago but stayed in bed until just before 8am. My meetings are this afternoon - I will make the most of the morning my way.
08:20 AM December 14, 2007 from txt

That means: folded comfy in a chair, scented candle burning, reading books & perhaps paper journal'ing while having juice & water.
08:22 AM December 14, 2007 from txt

In subconscious attempt to force myself to write, my cell adapter is irrepairably broken. Will access voicemail from other phones. No txts.
11:08 AM December 15, 2007 from txt

Note to self: turn facebook status follow OFF next time online. Twitter by txt doesn't work for me yet.
07:43 PM December 20, 2007 from web

Web browser on my phone is selective and limited. I am back in touch via cellphone again though, thanks to Dad.
07:45 PM December 20, 2007 from web

Thinking: I saw this coming.
08:13 PM December 20, 2007 from web

The internet has always been a sword and I find it difficult to balance on the blade.
08:16 PM December 20, 2007 from web

Maybe we have a good chance after all - despite circumstances or because of them.
01:59 AM December 21, 2007 from web

@ the library! Jeremy showed up earlier & we went to the mall & I bought some 'professional' clothes for the new job. It will get me by.
06:19 PM December 21, 2007 from web

Things have been difficult emotionally & otherwise but I have been learning so much from these experiences... so very much.
06:25 PM December 21, 2007 from web

w/o net access @ home, I miss having the time to at least read my LJ friends list, even if I didn't comment much. insert sigh here.
06:32 PM December 21, 2007 from web

Random Quote from one of my favorite comfort movies: "That could never happen now with our behavioral inhibitors."
11:29 PM December 21, 2007 from txt

Woken up by cat scratching just before my alarm was due to go off. 1st day of training today @ new full-time job nearby.
05:30 AM December 23, 2007 from txt

I am @ Dad's friend Laurel's daughter Donna's house for a Christmas thingy.
10:33 AM December 24, 2007 from txt

Yesterday was Christmas with my Dad. Today is more training at one of my new jobs. Right now is coffee.
08:58 AM December 25, 2007 from txt

7 months to the day until my 30th birthday. I wonder if my wish(es) will be the same and come true?
11:39 PM December 25, 2007 from txt

I am awake. Alarm goes off in an hour. I might just go exercise, write & read, aquaint myself with sleep deprivation.
04:09 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

Not that I haven't had my share of insomnia but next week I'll be working 2 full-time jobs for a few weeks. I want to get through this well.
04:14 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

My main concern is getting from one job to the other with time to change clothing. Speaking of which, I badly need to go to the laundromat!
04:18 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

I keep telling myself I can do this. I must if I hope to pay bills & survive, perhaps to thrive. 2nd job is part-time hours after training.
04:25 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

People are able to achieve far more when forced to & currently I have no choice. I want to be capable both physically & mentally. Concerned.
04:31 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

@ least I've been given the opportunity to acquire job skills, greatly needed! Reading in my spare time will help me through this humbling.
04:39 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

If this crumbles (or I do) at least I'll have tried. So long as I am attempting these things, I will not be a complete failure - I'm trying.
04:43 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

It is a great challenge for me but at least these employers don't exist to coldly cut me off. Now, I've been handed more dignity with a mop.
04:49 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

Nearly 5am. Might as well rise to meet the day. Still time to do some stretching exercise videos and book reading (poetry) before worktime.
04:59 AM December 26, 2007 from txt

Worked my 1st eight hour shift in years today. Never having done this sort of job before, I have so much to learn. Need to be patient.
04:44 PM December 26, 2007 from txt

Dignity. It's dignity I'm trying to attain, aside from a regular paycheck. I'm going about it the hard way but it's something I have to do.
04:49 PM December 26, 2007 from txt

I will be working my 1st night shift @ the store this evening. Now I am going to read through some of the textbook for the tax job training.
08:19 AM December 28, 2007 from txt

I had trouble getting up early this morning. Thankfully, I don't have to work until tonight. I wrote / typed more on the computer for my LJ.
08:23 AM December 28, 2007 from txt

As to when I'll actually post my journal entries online, that depends on whether I leave the house today. Think I'll stay in& take my break.
08:28 AM December 28, 2007 from txt

Med refills delivered today. Wondering what time(s) I should take my pills when I'll be working nights AND days. (don't know what I'm doing)
12:28 PM December 28, 2007 from txt

Thinking about the other morning walk to work: fog hanging around mainstreet buildings &the trees shimmer stark dustcover of snow &thin ice.
02:53 PM December 28, 2007 from txt

Crashed this a.m. after working the night shift. My body was exhausted & my mind blanked out. This has to change fast. Day training soon.
03:16 PM December 29, 2007 from txt

On Thursday I will be going from the 8 hour night job to the 8 hour training sessions. I need to be ready, physically & mentally.
03:19 PM December 29, 2007 from txt

Tonight - by quarter to midnight - I should be @ work for my first entire shift on my own. What an interesting way to start the new year!
05:05 AM December 31, 2007 from txt

Stopped reading a particular book from the library & moved on to the next one in the stack. This read is more interesting: on poor-bashing.
05:13 AM December 31, 2007 from txt

Just posted several entries to my LJ @ the library. Cleaned up facebook (those application requests = damn annoying) & now I'm heading home.
12:49 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Listening to elliott smith on my ipod and thinking that I will be bringing in 2008 working the night shift alone. Could be worse.
12:53 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Watching one of my favorite films - "Riding in Cars With Boys" - total chick flick but in ways I relate & connect w/the story; I'm inspired.
01:34 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Not going to finish watching the film because I want to read before sleeping for work tonight. I'm looking over @ Lion; he's in a paper bag.
02:10 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Still watching the film. Would be easier to stop if it wasn't a fave. "...do whatever it takes to get out of here. you don't belong here..."
02:38 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

I wouldn't think there'd be customers at midnight but ya never know. I've slept through some new years. @ least I'm starting off with a job.
09:13 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Yes, of course I would prefer to celebrate it in Toronto with my boyfriend... I'll try not to think on that but just concentrate on my job.
09:17 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Walking fast to get to Tim Horton's so I can fill my travel mug with caffiene. Hopefully I can still get to the store early before my shift.
11:27 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Dammit. Tim's closed @ 11! Guess I'll definitely be early for work. Argh. Ah well.
11:30 PM December 31, 2007 from txt

Worked New Year's. It started snowing almost exactly at midnight & is still falling. I am tired but must stay awake to prepare for Thursday.
08:46 AM January 01, 2008 from txt

I crashed around 9am despite wanting to try to make it until 4pm. Work was in my dream. I start full day trainging soon. How will I do this?
02:26 PM January 01, 2008 from txt

I am a wreck.
11:57 PM January 01, 2008 from txt

I am standing at a bus stop. I hope I get this right. Morning!
07:51 AM January 03, 2008 from txt

Ouch. Fare is $2.50.
07:53 AM January 03, 2008 from txt

Must update LJ when I get the chance. Things have changed again. Not by choice. Wednesday ='d heartbreak. Yesterday, started the tax course.
07:55 AM January 04, 2008 from txt

The transit bus route, when I catch it early, takes a scenic route. It goes past the graveyard where my twin sister's stone is...
08:01 AM January 04, 2008 from txt

To avoid the scenic route and walk a little further, I should catch the bus when it stops across from City Hall around 8am.
08:03 AM January 04, 2008 from txt

Cliff is almost here! To visit! For the weekend! Me and him! Together! OMG!
09:31 PM January 04, 2008 from txt

I'm tiring of all these different experiences to learn from. I hope I learn the right things. Is it to leave me w/ more pieces to give away?
12:03 PM January 06, 2008 from txt

I want these experiences to slit me open for everything that is wrong inside to come out, that I would be good & loving and still be whole.
12:15 PM January 06, 2008 from txt

Woke up having a nightmare about Toni. (Temporarily out of service).
06:34 AM January 07, 2008 from txt

I am worried about my bird of a feather. I wish I had saved the number she called me with at Christmas.
10:58 AM January 07, 2008 from txt

There is no mail being delivered to my building because of the locks on the slots. Just saw official notice that mail is suspended.
06:01 PM January 07, 2008 from txt

I called the landlord and he said he'd be over in the morning. In the meantime, my mail is withheld and to pick it up, there is a charge.
06:01 PM January 07, 2008 from txt

I noticed that windows were set in the building across the street today. Not long & blinds or curtains, bedsheets or eyes will blink at me.
06:11 PM January 07, 2008 from txt

Something about the reflection of streetlights on the several window panes of an unfinished apt. building (makes it seem more incomplete).
06:16 PM January 07, 2008 from txt

Twitter just tipped me to go for a long walk. I already am doing so - taking photographs, listening to my ipod shuffle & in a medicated calm.
07:12 PM January 07, 2008 from txt

Part of Bonnie "Prince" Billy song: 'hey little bird, thank you for not letting go of me when I let go of you' - beautiful... I am moved so.
07:57 PM January 07, 2008 from txt

This morning: coffee in a BIG gorgeous 'Alice in Wonderland' mug (Christmas gift from Gwen!) as I wake up, reading about federal income tax.
06:18 AM January 08, 2008 from txt

Today is the 9th of the month which means my monthly mobile fee occurred. The web browser hasn't been deactivated yet.
05:39 AM January 09, 2008 from web

Yesterday I was paid the "last" check & because I don't know when or what my exact income will be, I've paid February rent ahead in full.
05:41 AM January 09, 2008 from web

I have been awake since 4am with this tax stuff.
05:48 AM January 09, 2008 from web

I am not able to send text messages or make/answer phone calls until I can top up my phone. It'd be great if my browser would keep working.
05:50 AM January 09, 2008 from web

I suspect the web browser on my phone will deactivate too. Just as well, I suppose. Other stuff I have to focus on.
05:52 AM January 09, 2008 from web

The tax class has been quite informative and I'm learning a lot of interesting things...
05:57 AM January 09, 2008 from web

Honestly, I'm a bit stressed. Concentration low & confidence struck another blow (on the weekend). Everything added up ='s a negative.
06:28 AM January 09, 2008 from web

I am trying to keep it together and I appear to be but I'm pretty much just dragging myself along, pushing my way through another day.
06:31 AM January 09, 2008 from web

It's difficult to make some choices while it seems that so many aren't actually yours to make.
06:37 AM January 09, 2008 from web

I want to live a life of meaning and not one that is demeaning.
06:39 AM January 09, 2008 from web

I took the risk of more heartbreak & loss to save some sanity. There are past unhealthy self-abuse patterns I want never to return to.
09:13 PM January 09, 2008 from web

I still believe in love - a love that can repair all heartache. Learning it has to begin somewhere within - connected to a pure everything.
09:19 PM January 09, 2008 from web

Mobile phone is activated again (thanks, Dad!) and I'm going to bed hours later than originally planned.
11:57 PM January 09, 2008 from txt
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