goldmourn (amberdawnpullin) wrote,


I considered how much worse it would be if
it were 2 months or 2 years instead of 2 days.

It took a lot for me to say no:

but I sent him out the door with
his promises, excuses, parting
lines - lines that left my nose
running, bleeding the next day.

(I was clean before the comedown)

He was a ghost of what may be for me
--- if I didn't give a damn about anything.

After waking up - afternoon nightmare
left me (all the spirits he brought, gone
with him) I had never been so thankful
and so grateful for this day - to be alive.

Now, I will not hesitate to say no to anyone, anytime -
won't change or hurt myself for some pretty boy's yes.

- adp, May 2007
Tags: poetry & prose

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