it were 2 months or 2 years instead of 2 days.
It took a lot for me to say no:
but I sent him out the door with
his promises, excuses, parting
lines - lines that left my nose
running, bleeding the next day.
(I was clean before the comedown)
He was a ghost of what may be for me
--- if I didn't give a damn about anything.
After waking up - afternoon nightmare
left me (all the spirits he brought, gone
with him) I had never been so thankful
and so grateful for this day - to be alive.
Now, I will not hesitate to say no to anyone, anytime -
won't change or hurt myself for some pretty boy's yes.
- adp, May 2007